♥simple girl with extraordinary blog♥
说真的，
是你不了解我，
还是我真的不会表达我想要表达的事情？
今天的心情有点郁闷。
有种回到以前中学时候的感觉。
忽然发现，
原来等一个人的信息或电话是真的很痛苦的。
尤其当你又知道他不断地在上下线时。
为什么我会面对到这些问题？
不太想说，
也不懂怎么说。
朋友们总以为我很坚强，
但似乎没有人知道，
我的坚强都是装出来的。
为什么要装坚强？
因为我不能让别人觉得我是一个包袱。
有什么事，就自己承担和负责。
可是有时候，
连铁人都需要时间休息，
更何况我是假铁人？？
我不是要投诉些什么。
只是想要发泄一下。
如果连在你面前我都不能做回原本的自己，
那请问，
在你眼里，我到底是个怎样的人？
我，
真的累了。
是时候睡了，
晚安！
Well,
I actually don't know what I wanted to write about today.
Recently,
I really don't know what I'm thinking.
I've lost all the interest on accounting.
Or rather,
The life that I've imagined in the past,
is not the life that I really wanted.
In the past,
I've always thought that I'll be a workaholic,
Give up most of the thing to study part time and work full time to gain experience,
then get the licence to be certified as chartered accountant,
And finally achieved my career goal.
Be a chief finance officer of a multinational company,
And finally opened up own accounting firm.
But now,
after I've graduated to half a year and stepped into the accounting world,
I realised that I'm really not interested in it.
And realised that I'm actually sick of working life.
Sick of the life that requires me to wake up at 7 in the morning and work nonstop until the evening and reach home only at night.
I really wished to stop working at the office.
But I can't.
I have a car to feed,
I have a car loan to pay back.
Tell me,
what kind of non-office job can pay me at least Rm2000 each month?
And that's the minimum salary that I must have to keep myself survive.
Now I really know,
life is full of stress.
Actually,
I'm kinda regretted that I bought a car back then.
Now that dear has an extra auto car,
if I hadn't bought my car back then I can save up the money and use it for other purposes.
Besides,
I'm also in a deep dilemma.
A dilemma on whether I should further my studies for professional paper in accountancy.
Now that I realised I don't really like accounting,
I seriously don't feel like further my study on it.
But then,
My parents have put the pressure on me,
Emphasizing that I better no waste my knowledge on accounting.
Sigh...
There are really a lot to think about.
I guess I really should think it through.
I'm really stressed and tired =(
Pray that I'll sort things out as soon as possible.
Goodnight world. Xoxo
*never felt this stress*
I've been thinking about my life lately.
About what I wanted to do in my life;
About what I wanted to achieve in my life;
About how I wanted my life to be.
Nonetheless,
I seemed to be very blur about my life.
I don't know what I wanted.
Well,
of course everyone want a good life.
Wealth and health.
Both are equally important.
The problem is,
how am I gonna achieve both of them at the same time.
I really have no idea. =(
Tomorrow,
A new chapter of my life will be started.
Hopefully I get to achieve what I've wanted with the new life starting.
Wish me luck!! =)
*gonna plan my life and live it to the fullest!*
